Afraid of Living

I'm afraid of living.

Living a great life with everything,

getting close to friends,

having great stuffs,

knowing to a person well.

I'm afraid that at a certain point,

it will all be gone,

and all that's left is disappointments.

I'm afraid to get to know a person well.

I'm just scared that I might find out things

that I wouldn't want to know.

Then I'll get disappointed.

I'm scared of being close to people.

I'm scared that if I get very close to them,

at some point,

life happens and they'll leave.

Then I will be this being;

alone and disappointed.

I'm afraid of living,

Cause I'm afraid of losing.

nic w.

Nicole Theone